It's been almost a week..

Never hear from him totally and it's almost a week.
Have been keeping myself busy and move on with me life...
Just tot he will still stay contact with me a friend..
I hope to hear from him one fine day



Hope to hear from you soon.

Wondering How Is he doing..

It's almost a week.. never get to hear from him after that last msg he send me.
Never did i actually wait for him to msg me.. just hope he will still remember me as a friend.
Is he still treating me as a friend or not anymore?
Who can tell me?

He msg me in msn this "if you dun mind, can you change the display pic in ur msn?"
He said that to me.. tot he will say smth else like Hi, how are you lately?
I was just dreaming

When will that day gonna be?
:(

19 August '08

Around 10plus in the night time I have this self courage to send gim this sms
"I know it's ridiculous to say this but after being for so long. Not dew months but years how can ya bear to let go our memories and me? At least you know I am serious and won't play you out.. I will be a good gal and wun upset you. will you give our love another chance?

He replied me
"I have already do all i can. I dun want our past to affect my life now"
:(

He really bear to let go of our past rships.

*hurtz*

In real life...

In real life relationships trust, respect, intimacy, and unity are all necessary for a bond to form. It's the same in the 'virtual world; people want to hear from real people not just one sided, highly opinionated arguments from egos that don't want to hear the 'other side of the coin'.

Sometimes...

Sometimes still feel so neglected by him.

I wish everything could be better.

All I wish is the attention from you..

I just need you to show me some concern.

I need someone to talk to...

but you always seems to busy with your own things.

I dun ask for more..

Just be more gentle towards me..

14 Aug' 08 7PM

That time i was n school with my friends doing project.. Happily. I received one of his msg " Can you return me my 50 today? I am broke now.
He still rmb it. I promise him i will return him back as i said so.. and i reply him back"ok. But not so early as i got smth on. And he replied me back.. " ok, when you transferred you msg me. u busy?"
I was kinda disppointed in the way he asked me to return him the money infact which i own him.. Beside asking me back for money, there's nth he can ask about in me?? :(
He really treat me as someone which he needs then ask from me , if not he just totally wouldn't care about? :(
I was actually happy that he replied my earlier msg " How are you? Didn't reply you the past few days as i was busy." It really my day.. But not anymore.

What am i to him?!
:(
Anyone can tell me?

14 August '08

I was very happy, as i got to received his reply, I send him few days ago" How have you been?" he reply me today" How are u?! i was busy the past few day so never reply you. I was really happy.. but i can't feel more then that to him.. I just hope that he really sincerely treats me as a friend and i am glad about it. I thought he won't reply me as I have stalked him and fear him away.

I am really happy.

Hope I can always be there for you as a friend.

The Day...

His heart already changed for someone else in his life.. I am pleased for him that he have found someone he love. I really hope that he can treat the girlfriend well and trust her in any ways.
My heart still hurts but i am trying to move on with my life.. It's hard but i am trying to..
Today is the 6 days, I never get to hear from him as a friend.. I wouldn't blame him, he is offically attached to that girl where on earth go the time for others or someone like me..
He is enjoying his life with the girl and i hope they can always be together, Don't hurt the girl that he love and the girl which love him too spending all the time together.

JUst want to tell him this " Lance, you won't always have good and enjoyable life, everyone in this world won't always have the sweet moments .Cherish the person who deepy, truely loves you, don't comes to regret when you realised it one day", and I will always be there for you as a good friend.

Take Care.

The Truth Side Of Him

It was Friday and it seem a good day for me, I was with my friends in the afternoon, I msged him ask him where is he maybe we can have a lunch or smth. He replied me he can't make it as he already got other plans. I said alright. I felt really hurt each time he couldn't have lunch for dinner with me or even have sometimes with me just as a friend. I keep msg him and call him and i have this bad feelings that he with the ger, So i called him where is he? he told me he is at heartland with his friend. But i just can't trust what he said to me anymore whether issit a truth or full with lies.. I just can't stop myself from seeing him as i really miss him so much.. I went to find him at heartland , I saw him with this ger which I already long time suspected it was his gf.. which he told me is just a friend, colleague. I trust what he said till that time.. but not anymore..
I went to stalked them and followed them, He already saw me and knew that i was stalking them. I just really couldn't stop myself from not doing that.. which i knew it was so damn wrong. haiz. And i get to see him with that ger... he was beside the ger. He saw me and he just walked away which i am nobody to him. not even someone exist in this world.. becoz of the ger he can treat me in this heartless way ;(
I walked off without following them anymore. My heart just can't take it anymore. That day i felt like dying. I really do. No one hurt me so badly before. really no one in this world. I just tot he really meant what he said still and always treat me as a someone he will always remembered. But i am so wrong.
Finally, that day i got to realised where i really stand in his heart, is nth but just a dirt.
HURT.
Who can tell me how badly I am hurt :(
Not even god can tell me.
I still worried about him and care for him.

.Sob.

You Are

You're the star that shines down on me, to show me there's something in this world to see. You're the cloud that raises me above everyone else, to make me realize I just need to be myself. You're the sun that comes to brighten my day, when I just wanna fade away. You're the moon that sits so elegantly in the sky, making me wish it could be just you and I. And I just wish u could see, You're everything and more to me.

The Perfect Guy

Please don't ever break my heart

'Cause my world would fall apart.

I didn't think I would ever find

Someone quite so cute and very kind-

Who could get so deep inside my mind.

Is it such a crime

That I think of you all the time?

In my dreams it is you I see.

I wonder if you dream of me.

Could this, you and me,

Really be?

Is this a series of dreams,

Or have I really found love, like it seems?

You're the only one who truly understands,

The only guy who won't leave my heart in strands.

You're patient with me when I'm slow,

And you explain things I should know.

It tears me inside

When I realize you're not by my side.

I don't think I could trust another guy

'Cause I know you'll never lie.

And I know, for me, you're the perfect guy.