The Truth Side Of Him

It was Friday and it seem a good day for me, I was with my friends in the afternoon, I msged him ask him where is he maybe we can have a lunch or smth. He replied me he can't make it as he already got other plans. I said alright. I felt really hurt each time he couldn't have lunch for dinner with me or even have sometimes with me just as a friend. I keep msg him and call him and i have this bad feelings that he with the ger, So i called him where is he? he told me he is at heartland with his friend. But i just can't trust what he said to me anymore whether issit a truth or full with lies.. I just can't stop myself from seeing him as i really miss him so much.. I went to find him at heartland , I saw him with this ger which I already long time suspected it was his gf.. which he told me is just a friend, colleague. I trust what he said till that time.. but not anymore..
I went to stalked them and followed them, He already saw me and knew that i was stalking them. I just really couldn't stop myself from not doing that.. which i knew it was so damn wrong. haiz. And i get to see him with that ger... he was beside the ger. He saw me and he just walked away which i am nobody to him. not even someone exist in this world.. becoz of the ger he can treat me in this heartless way ;(
I walked off without following them anymore. My heart just can't take it anymore. That day i felt like dying. I really do. No one hurt me so badly before. really no one in this world. I just tot he really meant what he said still and always treat me as a someone he will always remembered. But i am so wrong.
Finally, that day i got to realised where i really stand in his heart, is nth but just a dirt.
HURT.
Who can tell me how badly I am hurt :(
Not even god can tell me.
I still worried about him and care for him.

.Sob.